Time To Show Up For Your Dreams
Posted on March 12 2017
“The most regretful people on earth are those who felt the call to creative work, who felt their own creative power restive and uprising, and gave to it neither power nor time.” Mary Oliver
I’m not afraid of dying. What I’m afraid of is dying with my dreams buried inside me. That is what I find terrifying. When I was little, I would stand in front of the mirror and ask myself, “who am I?” I’d do this often. I’d stare for a few minutes and I could have sworn that I felt something deep, swirling, powerful. I’d feel a little funny, light and then stop. A few days later, I’d ask myself the same question again. At 5 years old, I could sense that I had a purpose. I wasn’t sure exactly what the path would look like or what would be waiting at the end but I knew something was brewing. That was enough then.
“Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the unlived life within us.” Steven Pressfield, The War of Art.
They say the fastest way to get from Point A to Point B is a straight line but the point of life is not to get through it as fast and as straight as we can. Life is messy. It is filled with many squiggly paths and these paths are the farthest thing from a straight line. Life is also very complicated but a complicated life is no excuse to bury our dreams. I find it interesting that we show up for work everyday to cash a paycheck no matter how complicated and messy our life situations are but we refuse to show up for our dreams –we refuse to show up for our Purpose. If your car broke down on your way to work, you would find another way to make it there but one letter of rejection, one “no” and most of us will completely throw in the towel. What are we so afraid of?
“Are you paralyzed with fear? That’s a good sign. Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do.” Steven Pressfield, The War of Art.
My mother often tells me that one of the things she loves about me is that I’m brave, she believes that I have spunk. I tell her that I’m always afraid but that I make my moves in spite of the fear not because of it. We all experience fear. Sometimes I experience fear of failure and success simultaneously. I actually use this as a compass. The more afraid I am of something, the more I know that I have to move in that direction. My experience tells me that fear is like a shadow. It’s dark, looming and intimidating but it’s just air, literally the space between where I am and the manifestation of my dreams.
Ten years ago, I moved to Los Angeles with no job or contacts and $1500 in my account. I was a recent graduate who left a full time job on the east coast with no prospect of another. Armed with a lot of faith and an equal amount of spunk, I embarked on a journey that I was so confident would change my life forever. I couldn’t really explain what I felt in my gut to other people, I just knew.
We are all artists and creative souls in our own right and the world deserves to know us at our fullest potential. If you’re thinking “I don’t even know where to start”, be still, you already know the answer. Where you start doesn’t matter. Imagine you are a point on a circle, whether you move forward or backwards doesn’t matter. You will invariably be led back to your origin –the source. Brainstorm, write down ideas, create and travel the path. Don’t worry about creating a perfect path, the journey is the best part.
The simplest messages are often the most profound. Nike was on to this, which is why the slogan “Just do it” has lived on for so long. Just do it. Do something, anything that will lead you down the path you know deep inside you’re supposed to experience. Listen to your soul’s urge, it is the calm beneath the rocky current. Choose yourself and your dreams and show up for them. A writer is a writer the moment she writes a paragraph; a painter is a painter the moment he takes a brush to canvas. You are a creator the moment you create something. One step, that’s all it takes.
For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance. But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away…
We have all been endowed with gifts to enhance our human experience. We may think that individuals who are famous, recognized or in the public eye have greater gifts than a teacher or a stay at home mom but that’s just an illusion. A farmer who refuses to plant his seed, no matter how small for fear of failure is already a failure. He will never know what works and doesn’t work; he will never master his soil or his seed and he will never know abundance.